Taylor Swift - I Knew You Were Trouble
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I haven't done one of these in a while and I thought it would be nice to start getting back into it.
I've talked before about my previous ambitions from when I was younger, but now it's all changed. Okay, so I wanted to be a teacher, but I've also always said that I'm going to be famous. Everyone would always say to me, "You can't be a famous teacher." and I guess they're right. Being famous is one thing I want more than anything. I want people to know who I am, I want to be able to support my family when they're struggling and I want to be loved. I'll get there... eventually.
I love acting. It's only recently that I discovered this, but I already feel like I know so much! I want to be like Jennifer Aniston, Cameron Diaz, Hilary Duff, Meryl Streep, Julia Roberts, Maggie Smith, Selena Gomez, Amanda Seyfried etc.
Unfortunately, acting's really hard to be noticed in. In the few times I've been able to go and watch people perform in theatre's and I just wonder how they aren't famous. How is that even possible? How is the fair? Not only that, but it's expensive, and my family just don't have that kind of money. Don't get me wrong, if they could, they would, but money doesn't grow on trees, unfortunately. I do Drama at school, which, obviously, is free but I want more. Drama teaches me a lot, but I want to know more than just what everyone else in my class knows. I want to actually have a chance.
Pay for it myself? I wish. I don't have the money, and at 14, getting a job is really hard. Locally, there aren't any jobs available for people my age. Not that I'd particularly want to do a paper round, but even that has no spaces. It's impossible. Christmas has just gone, and yes, I had money from that, but it wouldn't be nearly enough. Even with my birthday being this Wednesday, I wouldn't be even close. I'm close to giving up.
Then there's the fact of having the talent for it. People tell me I'm really good, but, quite frankly, I don't believe them. I bet they say that to everyone. My form tutor, who is a Drama teacher herself and occasionally sits in on out lessons, was really surprised when I told her I'd never done it before and all that, but she could have been acting. She teaches Drama after all. You see, whatever I do, people tell me I'm good at. At the start, I used to be like, "hey, maybe I am good at something after all", but now I know it's not true. The things I do? They're just average. Everything about me is average. There is nothing I'm amazing at, nothing that's my strong point and nothing that I could make a living out of.
But hey, that's life.
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...until my March wish!